I wish I was motivated most of the time by kindness, or goodwill to others, or looking out for my fellow man.
But if I'm honest, one of my biggest motivators in my life is FEAR OF FAILURE.
Not the noblest of motivators, but, if I am honest, that is what keeps me going sometimes.
Yesterday I was in charge of organizing an assembly at Kellogg High School.
I didn't want to fail....I wanted it to be a good assembly...and the fear of failing helped me put in a good effort to get it organized.
And I think this fear often helps me determine choices I make in my life. I weigh trying something on whether I will fail or not.
It isn't that failure just devastates me. I do feel like I learn from failing.
But I like accomplishing things, rather than failing at them.
And I do like taking risks in certain things, but, again, I weigh the risk to determine how much it will make me look like a failure.
Is this just really weird?