It is funny how you can put yourself into a very bad place with the games you play with yourself inside your head.
Today I had my final review for my job, something I do each year.
I was preparing for it at home last night, and I was able to do everything but focus on getting ready for the final review.
Then I started getting down and not wanting to write comments about my failures over the past year, and what I hadn't accomplished. I went and laid on my bed, and didn't want to get up. PKR came in, gave me a pep talk, and told me to go write about the good things that I had accomplished over the year.
For a few brief moments last night, I sunk into failure mode. I felt like a failure. It didn't matter all the things I had accomplished with the students. There were things I hadn't done, and that is all I could focus on last night. All my failures.
I think God knows we tend to lean that way at times. That is why He gives us verses in the Bible like Philipians 4: 8-9
8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
Today, at my final review, my regional coordinator and members of my team tended to focus on whatever was true, and noble, and right, and lovely, and admirable, excellent and praiseworthy. I came away feeling much better about the job I do, and that progress was made with the students this year.
Now I feel much better, and more motivated as I prepare for next year.
Thank you, Lord, for your words of wisdom that can be applied to our lives each and every day.